So, I’ve turned 16 a few minutes ago. To be honest, I don’t remember too much of the 15th year of my life. Apart from getting seriously interested in SEO and delivering a performance in the board exams in February which was due since my birth, I don’t really remember many other things.
Like always, I don’t know what I’ll end up doing this year.
I intend to be a really really really great person to begin with. A logical, sensible, confident person with emotions (still) left – seriously, life is not all about brains.
I missed my real life a lot in the past year. It was like, organising all the things that I learned while I was 14, plus a few new ones, and just write them up in the board exams.
Fifteen has been a quiet year in terms of relationships as well. I’m not sure if that’s how an average Joe spends his third teenage year.
SEO is fun to me. So is Science. I always have a hard time when someone forces something on me. It was a similar situation a couple of months back with studies.
I want to move out to somewhere else. I know I won’t be able to, atleast for 1.5 more years… I’m stuck here.
Not that I hate the place itself. I have nothing against nature. I just hate the stupid people around here. I’m not claiming that I’m clever, but these people are insane and very very much immature.
I don’t really wanna escape. But, if I stay here like this, maybe become an engineer, and get an ordinary job, the offsprings of these people would also be like them. And this area will still suck.
I want to come back when I’ll actually be able to do something. There’s no use advising people. They don’t really like free advice.
I hope that I will never get either overwhelmed/pressurized by Science as a whole or get uninterested/bored of it. I’d just be one of those illogical people if I did.
Ohh, and I wished that Indian govt. issued driving licenses at least to 16 year-olds. I can’t travel by fucked up public transport for another two years. Seriously, this affects my going to school regularly and thus passively affects my studies.
Lastly, I hope my spinal curvature doesn’t progress. I really want to stay in good shape. I should’ve almost reached my skeletal maturity now that I’m 16.
So, that’s all… a few bits and pieces, fragmented version of what I really want. If I could publish everything online, and thought doing that is fine, I wouldn’t have kept personal diaries for years. Going through your personal diary entries is a feeling that I can never express in words…
The decision to admit myself in my own school has so far proved to be a wrong one. The facilities suck. The Science practicals aren’t really practicals. The faculty have started showing their limits, both in terms of knowledge and patience. So, like I always do, I’ve started relying on myself for learning new things. It’s exciting, except for the fact that I tend to skip boring chapters.
I love to be free in my own ways. I’m just working on that a bit more lately… Hope I’ll be able to keep this blog running for sometime.